baby, it's cold outside

Everyone just looks so sad lately. Thing is, nobody says it. You can walk past someone, or say hello, and with that, you can almost tell if their heart is breaking. I see it every day, with every one. Nobody's happy anymore, ever since the sun fell behind clouds and winter's chill took over. I guess it froze everyone's hearts, too.

i fought the war, but the war won

Don't you just hate it when life goes awry and you really feel like everything is caving in around you? I get it far too much. And I mean, I totally know what you're thinking too, "Oh, you're just a teenager, you're so melodramatic. ANGST ANGST ANGST" but no. I'm well aware there's millions of people who have had it much harder than me, but when you're family is like mine, and you're essentially forced to go between houses during the week and you only get to see your dad and your four-year-old brother every three weeks, sometimes six., it gets to you eventually.

Lately everything's just been.. twisted. Mom and Ron(Her boyfriend) have been screaming at eachother, which terrifies me. He hit her once, and I cried for an hour and all I could do was think it was my fault. Problem was, it actually was. I remember when I was twelve or so, mom was in a relationship with Will. They'd be dating for a long time, and I would go to sleep with them screaming at eachother in the other room, and sometimes, we'd wake up to furniture from inside being on the lawn. Apparently, they'd throw it at eachother.

I know, I preach like crazy about being happy and getting over your past but all this has been getting to me lately, because it's all just hit at once. On the brightside, my most recent ex just started dating someone else, which gave me the strangest sense of freedom. People keep asking me if I'm mad about it, too, but I couldn't really care less. I've been really unsure about my feelings for him for the past couple months and this just helped me let go. That's.. about the only great thing lately, though.

Ahh, well, in the words of Modest Mouse;

"We'll all float on okay."

oh, life

I've realized something. I'm THAT girl. The one that everybody knows, everybody likes, but nobody wants to talk to.

welcome twenty-ten

HAPPY NEW YEAR!

It's the end of another decade, guys. Another ten years passed. Another year on the horizon. Make the best out of it. Stick to resolutions, fall in love, better yourself, better the world, and be happy.